simpleman03

11:00 am: Man
Today is a bitch. I wake up and I already have to go do some stupid ass chores which its my dads fault and now I was just eating Mcdonalds and they got my order wrong the fucking dick heads. But other than that it was ok. The band competition went ok, we didnt do to good got 5th over all out of 9 bands. But it was cool cuz I got to hang out with friends, I dont get to do that much cuz Im grounded. Im going to watch The Waterboy.

12:55 pm: School
Im at school right now in 6th hour and this is my first journal entry that I have done in a long time. Right now Im doing accounting work, Im trying to see how much I am worth and right now I am around 2000 dollars. Not that much :(. I dont feel like going to band tonight I think I just might skip but Im not sure. It is suppost to rain tonight so I am crossing my fingers. :)

09:24 pm: Im a women
How come ever situation I get into I end up like playing the girl role. I got some really good advise from a friend and Im trying to go with it but its hard all I can do is think about it. I dont know what to do, I mean I understand for it and what its choices are but I still hoped I had a chance but I dont think Im going to have a chance anymore. FUCK Im such a dumb ass!

10:48 am: Why?
Today im thinking that it is going to be a long day. Because im looking for something that I might never find, because I keep getting shutdown no matter what. But its always on my mind. Today im going to go hang with friends and prolly go get drunk so I cant feel no more.

12:30 am: Hell
I just got off work, havent even taken off my shoes yet. On the ride home I was listening to a cd and I looked up at the stars and it was an outline of someone that I care for which tells me I cant stop thinking about them no matter what they say. I have been out of it all day non stop thinking and I am being torn apart. I just want to be hit by a car tomorrow or be shot or something that would be me in acoma so all I can do is think and nothing else, and that person would always be on my mind.

10:42 pm: Smile
I just read a live journal and say these and when I got to the bottom they said guys if your willing to do these repost them. So
27 ways to make a smile..

*01 . Tell her she is beautiful (not hot, fine, or y)
*02 . Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
*03 . Kiss her on the forehead.
*04 . Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
*05 . Always tell her you love her every second of the day.
*06 . When she is upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
*07 . Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
*08 . Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
*09 . Pick her over all the other s you hang out with.
*10 . Write her notes. (she loves them)
*11 . Introduce her to family and friends . . . as your friend.
*12 . Play with her hair.
*13 . Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
*14 . Sit in the park and just talk to her.
*15 . Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, or just tell her jokes.
*16 . Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night . . . just because you missed her. (but don't break the window. lol)
*17 . Let her fall asleep in your arms.
*18. Carve your names into a tree.
*19 . If she's mad at you, kiss her.
*20 . Give her piggyback rides.
*21 . Bring her flowers just because.
*22 . Treat her the same around your friends as you do when your alone.
*23 . Look her in the eyes and smile.
*24 . Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
*25 . Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
*26 . Kiss her in the rain.
*27 . If your in love with her . . . tell her.

10:24 pm: JFKLDSJ:KLJSDF
Today wasnt bad, school was ok and then I cam home and ate my favorite food........my grandmas pasta, then I got to talk to the most beautifulist and most gorgeous person. I had to leave tho and go to band, I am starting to hate band cuz I dont want to go to the practices anymore. They have become the biggest pain in the ass. But the class isnt so bad, I dont have to go to it tomorrow thank god I have to go to some stupid assembly and I dont even know what its about. Right now Im happy cuz Im talking to the most beautiful person again, so that makes me happy. But I have to finish this god damn paper and I dont know what Im going to bring in to the class for the stupid like show and tell thing I feel like im in Kindigarten, or how ever you fucking spell it, I dont really care. Im going to go hang with someone tomorrow before the football game. I can tell you know if your there that game is going to be so hilarious. Thats really it.

10:28 pm: Sleepless
Tonight was fun because I got to hear someones voice for the first time ever, and I was hanging out with some friends which was fun as hell we got some pictures. But the best time was tonight around 10 o'clock because I got to talk to someone I wanted to talk to for a while, but I didnt know what to say to them. But it just all came to my tonight. I cant wait to go see them, cuz they are so beautiful and I have some questions I would like answered. LOL. But I doubt tonight I will sleep at all because I got someone on my mind, and they wont let me sleep. I should atleast try I do have school tomorrow it will be a fun day Im sure.

05:18 pm: Ok
Today was a little better day because I wasnt in like a depressed or like annoying mood today and school was a bit better. Right now Im hanging out with Marcos and Tristan. And tonight I look forward to talking to people. Tristan has the grossest picture on his desktop, I hate him for ever and ever because he made me see it and then we watched some gross movies that are really disturbing.

11:24 pm: Shit
Today was the first day of school and it sucked, and lately I have been down because I care for someone, and someone else told me they don't care for me so that kind of makes me depressed and sad. But know I read some like journal type stuff and it sounds so mixed up and know i don't know if the do or do not care for me. So I don't know what to feel right now. Maybe just love, but that might be to much to ask for because I always fuck everything up in my life, I don't know why some people don't think I do but I know I do its just the way I am.